嗯，没错，我就是一直这幅死样子，永不悔改。
气温降到手脚冰凉的程度时，窗口飘进清爽的冷风——或许是邻居屋顶上的盆栽散发出草香——我闻到斯罗文尼亚。
嗯就这么决定了。夏天时愧对了许多人热情的邀请，冬天要补上。

Talked to Damjan the other day, he asked me when I'm coming as if I should've been in LJ right at that moment - or maybe it was just me. Today this smell of dry grass and cold air touched me, reminded me how crispy the winter should be. Then I knew I'm missing home; not the apartment in Bejing, but the embrace of all beloved people.

电脑终于送回来。检查，少一枚螺丝。再整个打开，发现风扇仍然不转。
明天再次送修。谁说我奢侈来着？现在还想说么。

Tablet is sent back. Missing: a screw, and a working fan. So what the fuck did I send it in for? You incompetent morons.
One big finger to all useless italians.

不想记帐。没劲。要真的失去联络，也安慰自己是早晚的事儿。很多话都说不出口而积在肚子里，久了就被消化了；再想说出来就如同反刍，反胃别人也恶心自己。
都说越走天地越广，我却越走越狭小。

Tired of bullshiting myself, especially when there's nothing to bullshit about. Then tired of telling things, tired of keeping contact, tired of speaking. Words have expiration dates; once you drunk a bottle of milk late, you stuck with half yogurt for the whole year. Disgusting. And you thought, maybe you can live without milk.
That's why I'm short.

短暂的消失之后我又再次归来；电脑还没有修回来，之所以可以上网了，是因为买了一台新电脑。
有些人在惊呼奢侈了；有些人明白我的理由。无所谓。事实不会因为解释的不同而改变。
希望一切插曲就此结束。

After short absence I'm back online. The old Toshiba is not back yet, right now I'm on my new laptop.
The word "extravagance" comes to someones' minds; but others know where I stand. Doesn't matter because it is what it is regardless how you put it.
I just hope the all eventful days will end with summer.

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